Let me be honest…I racked up this Christmas. Cynthia got me some amazing, well thought out, gifts (she won the gift giving award this year). My parents and siblings got me some really cool gifts. My families main love language is gift giving and receiving, so come holidays and birthdays we all get excited and usually go over the top. I mean the reason I’m even typing this at 1:45am is because I also got some amazing coffee gifts and I’ve been drinking a lot of coffee thanks to that…a lot.
Yet, as I sit here after an awesome week with my family, after receiving and giving some really cool gifts, after eating for free at a restaurant that I couldn’t afford to eat at unless I took out a loan, I can’t help, but hear myself thinking things like, “you know what I could use?” Or, “you know what I need?” I can’t help, but think that I’m not yet satisfied. Why do I do that?
I have just been basically lavished upon by my family and friends yet I can’t help but want something else. What is wrong with me? Maybe I’m alone in this, though I doubt it, but I feel like contentment is really hard for me. Maybe it’s our culture that says that we should never be satisfied and that we should always want more. Maybe it’s the media that tells us that we always have to have the newest and “best” thing out there. And trust me, I have fallen prey to those ads a lot.
I wonder if there is something inside of us that can never be satisfied. What if we keep trying to fill this unsatisfaction with things that don’t actually satisfy us?
Can we ever be fully satisfied?
Do you feel yourself doing the same thing after the holidays?